Please...

Assalamu'alaikum wrm wbt,

[Kenangan OBS: Part 3 is put on hold for a while]

Don't ask any further..

I just want to spill them here.
It's fine enough other people saying this and that...but they would never really understand unless they're in the same boat.

Yes, I know Allah won't test you if you're not strong enough.
Yes, I know that innama'al 'usri yusraa...verily with each difficulty, there's a relief.
Yes, I know what you like may not always be the best for you.
Yes, I know we plan..He also Plans and He is truly the Best Planner.

but...

Please, O Allah, guide me through this ordeal.
Please, O Allah, make my heart strong.
Please, O Allah, grant me strength to get back up.
Please, O Allah, keep this etched in my heart and my mind so that I won't forget.

because...

I am nothing..
nothing without You.

and to quote Hemingway; "Life breaks us all, but in the end, we are stronger in the broken places."

and to lift up some of the long-gone spirits..."It always get better in the end. If not, then it's not the end yet."

Until then...I pray that each one of you will always be under His blessings.
Wassalamu'alaikum wrm wbt.

along: it's really a mixed feeling i'm experiencing at the moment. don't know how to express myself any better. if you don't understand this, it's ok. it's meant for me to look back later.